Bleh! Blah!

Ini random post lagi hehe.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHH
Ada gak sih obat penyakit jealous?
Yoku dekimashita ne, kono ochitsuite no kimochi.
Yoku gaman shimashita.
Gaman suru wa.
G a m a n s u r u k a r a s h i n p a i s h i n a i d e k u d a s a i : )

- If you can look how was my face everytime I'm getting jealous
- If you can know what am I doing everytime I'm getting jealous

I said 'I trust you from the bottom of my heart'
So I mustn't be jealous if you like a girl(that I don't know)'s photo on Insta*kilogram (kalo buat payback gapapa, tapi kalo maksud lain....... I dunno... well waktu itu bilangnya 'paling kalo cantik gw liat' tapi gak bilang like sih....)
Why am I getting jealous just because of those s h e e t things?
Why?

I must calm myself
I must keep 'think positive'

YEAH I KNOW THAT- THE FACT- GIRL REALLY LIKE TO INSTALL THAT SUCH APPLICATION
JUST HOW CAN YOU KEEP THINK THAT YOU'RE A LONER?! AN ANTI-SOCIAL?!
How can I believe that without the evidence from you...
U may think that my english sucks
Yeah but thats the fact
My english rlly sucks
I just type what I wanna type

Once u become a sociality-person, I bet you will be like 'boy of this era'
Even your ex-crush said that one of her first impression of you was 'handsome'
I bet there are so many girls fi u like that
If you're not weird (survey) u won't be like this (I will say that u re freak;just like how u fi me)
and I don't think u will accept me;maybe just like my ex-crushes, they just go away from me
I just 'like' them
I didn't put any hope to form a relationship with them
Not a single
Karma desu ne, mou kebal(?) desukedo.

U must be like.. 'huh? u don't know anything/everything about me'
'please understand me'
'please be mature' (?)
'please know hows my feeling'
'what did u mean by this?'
......and thats just my thought

...and just like this, I've calmed myself.
Type something here and BAM!
Calmed.
Sorry if all of these hurt you
I don't mean to hurt you
How can I hurt someone special for me?

See you on the next curhat. Byee.